Perfect
love drives out fear …1
John 4:18
Of all the
passages from Scripture that I have learned over the years, this piece is
perhaps the most troubling for me. It makes me feel inadequate, that somehow
I’ve failed in my faith.
The reason for
that feeling is the fact that I have an anxiety disorder, and despite all my
praying and faith in God, I still experience fear.
Irrational,
unreasonable, ridiculous, unexplained, sometimes fleeting, sometimes enduring,
fear. If it weren’t so inconvenient (occasionally even paralyzing), it might
even be funny. For example, I won’t
drive at night because a deer might dash in front of my car causing me to die
in the resulting accident. And while anything is possible, really, what are the
odds of that?
Wait a minute.
That may not be the best example. I live in Minnesota, after all, and I’ve
already had one headlight taken out by an errant Bambi on a dusky road. Odds
are slight it will happen again.
The fear that it
MIGHT happen again, AND kill me in the process, though, still weighs heavily in
favor of my not taking a moonlit drive. Ever.
So, yes, I fear,
which according to our letter-writer John, means I am not perfect in love. And
that makes me feel guilty.
Double fail. What’s
a girl to do?
Here’s my take
and I hope it helps you as it has helped me over many a rough wrestle with the
Bible: memorizing pieces of Scripture is great for trivia contests, but if you
want to really understand what Scripture says, you need to read the whole
chapter, if not the whole book.
You don’t read a
couple of lines out of the middle of a paragraph in a novel, and decide you’ve
got it figured out, do you? Of course not! In the same way, we all need to move
beyond the one-liners in Scripture and get the whole story, which in the case
of 1 John 4 is about how we know that God loves us. It’s about our relationship
with God, NOT about our relationship with jay-walking Bambis, or any other
thing that frightens us here on earth. In fact, John’s letter assures us that
we don’t have to fear God, because He loves us …perfectly… fears and all. With
that bit of information tucked away in our hearts, we know we have nothing to
fear from God, and that, in reality,
He loves us right through our fears. God is FOR us always…even, and perhaps
especially, when we fear.
Now that’s some
Good News, wouldn’t you say?
Jan Dunlap has 33 years of experience raising her five children. She is the author of the humorous memoir Saved by Gracie, and the laugh-out-loud Birder Murder Mystery series. Jan lives in Minnesota, where she delights in finding God and laughter in the everyday moments of life to share with her readers and audiences. She welcomes visitors to her website at jandunlap.com, her Facebook page at Birder Murder Mama or @BirderMurder on Twitter.
Very inspiring post, Jan! I ask God every day to deepen and strengthen my faith. Then, I try my best to "Let go and let God."
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